☆ミ I've Got Too Much To Lose

These are for my benefit.
I need to get these things out.

1) I tell people I hate you, I tell myself I hate you. You destroyed whatever I had left in me that saw love as something real. But sometimes I still wish I could go back and find a way to make you fall in love with me, and not her.

2) You are too good for her. For everyone. I know you don't want to be alone, but I feel like I need to protect you and I know all they'll do it rip you apart.

3) Let him go, please. I know you say you're okay, and you're over all of it. I know you're not, I know you still cry at night over him. He will kill you and you're too strong to let something as pathetic as him to ruin everything.

4) I was so fucking close to jumping, and the only thing that kept me from doing it was thinking about how upset and worried you'd be. You won't even believe me, and you make me feel guilty for wanting to die. Thanks for the counselor, and thanks for thinking this is a fucking joke.

5) You make me want to give up on design. Design is all I have left.

I want to fall in love with you so badly. You make me feel so worth while. I'm just worried you'll see me the way I see me, and hate me.

7) If I had to let everyone in the world die except me and one person, I'd let you stay. We'd be miserable, but you're the greatest person I've ever met.

8) I love you, and I know you love me but you pretend like it's not there. I think it's because you're just as bad as I am. Keep playing music, it makes you happy.